Raw

This is a different style and tone than I would normally write in our reflections. However, in light of the tragedy yesterday at Nashville Covenant School, I would like to share something I wrote in 2018 after the events in Parkland Florida. It may feel raw and somewhat unorganized to read, but these were my thoughts and feelings and remain true for me on this day.

First year teacher

First year fears:

The normalization and numbness of

The slaughtering of our children.

School.

Safe.

For many, the safest environment inexperience

Now exposed and exploited

So that others may enjoy their inalienable rights.

Lord have mercy.

Lockdown.

Drill or not - the adrenaline advances

Abandoning fear when face to face with the

Agonizing reality of attack.

Questions.

Too many questions.

What if we run?

What if we hide?

What if we’re trapped?

What if we’re alone? Adultless?

If I had the choice, I would not raise my hand to answer.